There are no guarantees when it comes to loveMon, Jul 24th 2006
About seven months ago I became involved with a woman whose husband had abandoned her. At first our relationship revolved around her heartbreak over her husband's actions. He had been unfaithful to her on at least two occasions. He had moved out of the house twice. The first time he left she begged and begged for him to return and he eventually did. Less than a year after that, he left again and took all his stuff. He refused to answer any calls, ignored and abandoned her completely. He had also emotionally abused her in many other ways too numerous to go into here.
I had met her about four or five months after he left her, and with her children's encouragement she started dating other men (me).
Initially, I just listened and provided a sympathetic ear for all her problems. I told her that I would try to help make the pain go away. Slowly we became closer and closer, until one day she told me she was in love with me and that indeed I had made her pain go away. I fell in love with her also and we began a very close and loving relationship. I met and became involved with her grown children and her parents. She became involved with my children and I introduced her to my friends and family.
She filed for divorce about three months ago and all the paperwork has been submitted. In this state, the divorce becomes final six months after the day she filed.
After he was served papers, I overheard a telephone conversation when he called her and I was shocked to hear unbelievable verbal abuse coming from him. He screamed profanities at her and made treats against her. Turns out she asked to split the value of a piece of property in the divorce which he felt was his alone. I watched as she just listened to this abuse. Afterwards I told her that his behavior was awful. She stated that "he's just mad", no big deal. I was a little leery that she was so prepared to rationalize for him. In the end she capitulated and she told him that he could keep his property.
So our lives became closer and closer and we finally became engaged to be married. She promised everlasting love to me, that she would forever be faithful, and she swore that we would always be together. She also promised that she would never put anyone through the pain she has suffered. We were together every evening (we both have our own houses) and made several fun and bonding trips together. Our relationship was faith based and I truly thought God had brought us together.
About six weeks ago her ex-husband found out about our relationship. (You can probably tell where this is going) He started to phone her constantly. At first she told him not to call. But he persisted in a obsessive way. He would call fifteen or twenty times a night. I told her not to return the calls, not to talk to him, and that whatever she does, do not meet him.
Slowly she started to give in to his insistence. He even used her parents to trick her into answering the phone. He would keep her on the phone and drag out the conversation. He promised her that he would do anything, including go to church (which he had always refused to do before), go to counseling (which he had always refused to do) if she would just take him back. Then he kicked it up a notch, and confessed all the things he did to her including the adulteries. He said that he was the worst husband there ever was and he doesn't blame her for leaving. But now, he has reformed. He has learned a painful lesson and he will never do anything wrong again if she will just take him back. He calls her and cries and sobs on the phone. He plays the "I'm still your husband" card. Then last week she agreed to see him. More tears and begging.
This affected her greatly. She told me she feels so guilty. She says she felt such pressure and that she wanted to be alone.
After an agonizing day apart, we spoke and agreed that the day did nothing for either of us. At her parents' encouragement (most of her family and friends dislike her ex-husband) we went away for three days and left her cell phone behind. It was the most peaceful and loving experience. We recommitted our vows to each other and I really thought we were going to get through this.
But when we got back she listened to her messages and there he was crying and sobbing begging her to take him back.
I told her that this was pure manipulation and control. It's not her that he wants. I know it is that he doesn't want her to be with me. But in the end that really doesn't matter. It is what she wants.
She seemed to agree and things seemed to improve.
Last night we had a wonderful evening together. But when she got home he was waiting for her. (Stalking her) More theatrics and tears. I thought this was getting to a critical point so I dashed over to her house. I pleaded with her to stop this insanity. She had to be firm and tell her ex-husband the truth about us and let him go. She said that she would take care of it.
Today I woke up to none of my usual email messages from her. Or phone calls. So I tried to email her and phone her. Nothing. Nothing all morning.
Around eleven I received an email that stated this:
"I would like to share a few thoughts I've had recently. I know there are no guarantees when it comes to love. Real love requires risk, putting one's feelings out there in the most vulnerable state. Without that risk, we will never share true love with anyone. The thought of risking another chance with Steve scares me to death, but in reality, the risk would be no less with anyone. No one knows what the future holds for us. The best we can do is put our faith in God and pray that he will lead us down the right path. That path does not always lead to what we think is our best interest, but it does lead to God's will. I believe in this with all my heart."
She has continued to ignore my telephone calls.
I would really appreciate some advice on this because I think I'm a little too close to the issue think clearly.
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